I remember sitting down making this tumblr to spite you. But this became my diary, my escape from you and to vent. I’ve religiously wirtten on this tumblr for months and it took me so long to delete all those other post because in my own personal opinion the person that wrote all of them no longer exist. I use to be the biggest advocate for romans and relationships but how can i anylonger look at love the same. They say a broken heart changes a person, in my situation it was most certainly right. I’ve chased after something that has been coming to an end. Next week on tuesday sometime during the day i will ask the person I’ve been writing about for so long to finally be with me and I’muncertain of what will be said how it will be done or what will happen from now to next tuesday. But I sure hope it’s a yes. And if it’s a no then i will have to pick up my chin and deal with it. I’ve put myself through to much self-abuse to keep up with this. And i’m sure over the summer i will be busy either being with someone or getting over them. And getting ready for the coast gaurd but this last post to thank you, i know this might sound weird saying thank you to a tumblr, but this tumblr let me escape from some dark time. Thank you for always letting me be me.

fingers crossed.